Rock Bottom

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Oh, man does it hurt when you slam into life’s rock bottom. You feel like you’re trying to climb out of a pit, but there’s nothing to grab onto. People want to help, but they don’t know how…and you don’t even know what you need. You’re stuck. You put your head in your hands, and the tears just roll on out. The worst part is knowing that there were probably caution signs, but you didn’t notice because you were too busy doing what you thought was the right thing. 

Turns out you missed your turn and even your GPS doesn’t know where the heck you are.  You keep going, though. Even when there’s nowhere to go because you’re in this awful pit, you keep moving because that’s the only way you’ll find a way out–even if there isn’t one.  You tell yourself that it will be okay, and give yourself a superficial hug. You don’t believe yourself, of course, but you tell yourself anyway.  While you were pacing and thinking and worrying, you didn’t realize how far you had gone. You didn’t notice what a difference all your efforts had made. When it finally sinks in that you’re no longer at rock bottom, it’s almost like it never happened. 

You vow you’ll never forget though, because forgetting is dangerous. Forgetting means we didn’t internalize the lesson, that we didn’t understand how we hit rock bottom. Forgetting means we’ll get stuck again…and the second time will be so much harder to pull ourselves up. But we will. It’s what we do. We pull ourselves up and start anew daily, every sunrise, every breath, every heartbeat. We start anew. Always. 

Daily Discovery

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The sun comes up each morning. This, by itself is nothing significant. When you’re stuck in a rut it can even be irritating. Every time the sun rises there’s such a display of color. The sky yearns for us to understand that this new sunrise is ours. The time is ours to do with as we please. We can live in the monotony of everyday existence, or we can take the time to truly communicate with the world and make discoveries. 

Daily we are given new dreams to pursue, new ideas, new joys. The time we have now is the only time we are promised. We are not promised tomorrow. We are promised today. 

Perspectives

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If life is a flower,

Plant it in your heart
Nurture it in your soul
If life is a grave
Decorate it with sighs
Feed it with tears
If life is an abyss
Throw it away
Recycle the plastic
Life is a joke
Laugh it off

Good Morning America

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The explosion of water from a tap

The  colors of the rainbow are mapped

The voice of the sky is scratched

The life as I die is crap.
 
The girl scout cookies are stale.
The coffee a permanent ring that has rung
As I watch the fire fail
I am the last note he has sung.
 
You are the tree
I am the axe
The one that is free
Is not the one in the cask
 
The paper that is folded
The life that is moulded
The patience corroded
The Prince demoted
 
The alarm is bleeping
Fucking the world with it
The tea is steeping
The  news is spewing shit
 
You are the lines
I color outside
The final notice signs
The lowest tide
 
Erase
Pace
Admit
Defeat
 
GOOD FUCKING MORNING AMERICA

Let us Dare

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Let us dare to believe that we are full of greatness
 that poetry is alive within our souls
 that beauty inures our passions
 that a star can snatch our breath from our lips
 that the darkness is visible
 and all possibilities are possible.
 Let us dare to pulse with our own inadequacy
 lifted up by our failures on wings that cannot falter
 for already low we have sunk sullenly. 
Let us dare to be inhumanely human.

Let us free our hair from rubber shackles

free our voices from uneven whispers!

Let us holler, dance, stumble, tangle!

Let us live a life that is full of moments,

moments of quiet purity, as dew collects on uncut grass

moments of ecstasy as we plunge into the raging river

moments of organic, rough-cut, effervescent vulnerability.

Let us dare.